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creator and creation

“ughh i had a long day today, please not now..” i said, exhausted. i had just collapsed on my bed a moment ago. “please! just a single song! it'll be short!” kiwi replied from just outside my room, obviously preparing to use their trumpet. “no it won't. we both know, no it won't be short.” “you might have a point, my bunny friend!” “for the last goddamn time i'm not a bunny!!”

i could hear a lullaby being played on the trumpet, with noticeably more mistakes than usual, which was close to zero. “what's wrong? did you forget how to use the one thing you can?” i asked smugly, with a hint of sarcasm. “oh nah. i just feel like this is way more annoying to listen to, so i just mess up on purpose :3” “of course you do, kiwi…”

eventually, i fell asleep. i don't know if kiwi ever gave up or not, but either way, somehow i could fall asleep.

and then the usual happened. back in the void. i can never quite get used to this place. it's pitch black and looks like it's flowing and melting. it's pitch black, and yet you can see beautiful patterns of color. and the ominous egg that basalt apparently knows about…

this time, i saw the egg again, just like when i first woke up here. it still looked and felt almost the same. two or three times the size of a person, black and shiny, with cracks all over. but as i touched it… i felt a human touch.

i instinctively pulled my hand away as fast as i could, and looked up at it in shaky breaths. “hello??” i cried out. “hello, rinzo!” a voice came out of the egg. it should have made me feel even more scared, but… something about it was comforting. the voice almost sounded happy to see me. it sounded genuine. and i felt like i knew who it was. “cygnus?”

as i said that word - that name - the egg slowly turned translucent, revealing a person inside. i couldn't make out any details about the person, but it was a person. it was cygnus.

“so you do know me. that's.. a bit of a relief.” he said, relieved. “do you also know who i am, by chance?” “...no, i don't think so. i don't remember where i heard this name, either.” i answered after taking a moment to think. “well then, allow me to introduce myself. i am cygnus. i created the world you've been spending time in!” “are you… god?” “well… in a sense… i guess so?? but i don't see it that way, and you shouldn't either! i'm just a guy.” “but, you created the world! most guys can't do that.” “well, the others could too. but.. that's not important right now. there's another thing i want to tell you.” “alright. what is it?” “i also created you, rinzo!” “oh! are you my dad? :3” “i.. guess so!” he said. it was not the answer i was expecting. that was more of a ‘no i'm not.’ “:3” “either way, you have a purpose. or well, no, that's not the right way to put it… i created you with a purpose.” “oh? i'm not following.”

“you see, i can't exactly… enter the world anymore. as you can clearly tell, i'm stuck in this egg. but… i don't want to be here. so i thought: ‘what if they had made an oversight? what if, if i created life, it wasn't affected by this?’ and sure enough, you seem to be free! so it worked.” i went silent. i understood none of what was just said. a god, imprisoned? by whom? who did this? why can't he escape? why am i free? he sighed. “you seem to have more questions than answers. but truth be told, so do i. you're free to ignore all of this if you so desire. just pretend it was all a dream, and you don't have to think about any of it.” “no, it's.. i understand. i want to understand. i want to know more about all of this. how can i break you out? you're not evil, right?” he chuckled at my last question. “i wouldn't consider myself evil, that's for sure. as for the breaking out… well, i don't know if that's even possible. but i appreciate your willingness.” “ah… i see.” “for now, just go along like usual. just like before. like-” “cygnus. i think i'm waking up.” “oh dear. i'll be here next time too! i won't go anywhere. just look for the egg if you want to talk to me!” “alright, will do! see you la..ter..” i said goodbye, my perception slowly fading.

i woke up.